Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Between Two Worlds

Lately I have been going through a blogging identity crisis. I find that at this point there are topics in my life other than grief that I feel compelled to write about, the main one being the little boy growing inside me. And yet, I still have a lot of passion for the deeply important work of healing after a loss.

I have been unsure whether to turn The Encouragement of Light into a journal of my many varied thoughts, including those about my pregnancy, or if I should honor its original intention, which was to have it be about Sage, Dad, grief and healing.

I have finally come to some resolution about this . . . The Encouragement of Light will continue to be what it has been, a haven for me to explore my continued process of healing, and to share ideas, information and inspiration with those who have experienced a loss.

I will be creating a new blog for our second son. At some point, I may end up posting much more on that second blog and this one may come to completion. Right now, I am still immersed in both worlds.

When I have the new blog set up, I will post the address, so those who want to read about our second child will be able to. I am excited to create that blog because it will be my form of a baby book that our child will be able to read someday. It will also be a way to share him with our family members who live so far away.

In the meantime, I just want to acknowledge that what I post here is an important piece of my life, but it is not the only piece. I hope by defining my intention this way, it will be easier for me to write without feeling I have to give a complete picture on this one blog.


Anonymous said...

.stretching, growing, much more to come! The wheel moves into the future and brings with it the can not help but welcome what is growing inside of you, stepping forward into this new place and new life...I can't wait to read about it. Love you, g.

caitsmom said...

I look forward to a transition to needing to write about other life events. I've notice it happen a very few times on my blog, and I think it's good. It's healthy. Thanks for sharing your healing with us. Peace.

Sara said...

I'll be interested to see your separation of these. I found the new life growing within me . . . and now outside of me to be part of my healing. But I did find I needed a new forum as my previous one had been something I set up during Henry's hospitalization.

Anonymous said...

The Encouragement of Light has been an incredible insight for me, partly because I have no children and will not have any. In a way, it has been like reading a masterful poem or story that opens the reader to another's powerful experience. I look forward to knowing and loving your new child through you as I came to know and love your Sage. Joy and love to you and Michael. Susan

Julie said...

I can't wait to read your other blog, in addition to this one. Yours is one of maybe four blogs I check every day; you inspire me so much.

I'm intrigued by the idea of your second blog for different topics. I think that will be really cool. I kind of blend it all on mine - grief, new baby, recipes, family, random stuff - but I love the idea of separating your trains of thought.

And I'm so happy to hear that your pregnancy is progressing. You don't know me, but I am very, very happy for you.